I was listening to the radio today and heard this by C.S. Lewis:
Embrace the pain
to learn it's lessons well.
I am still trying so hard to work thru this.
I know it has only been 4 weeks since mine and Chase's world as we knew it was shattered..... but I am so ready for healing!!!
I am so ready to roll over as the alarm goes off and NOT THINK ABOUT THE DESTRUCTION THAT HAS BEEN AND STILL IS BEING WROUGHT to so many!
To get thru ONE day without tears! The tears are more controlled now, ( mostly-on good days) when I am alone and crying out to God.
I KNOW GOD HEARS ME- AND FEELS MY PAIN..... I KNOW THAT HE HAS A REASON FOR ALL OF THIS AND IT WILL BE FOR HIS GLORY!!!!....but I am so ready to NOT think about this anymore! I know that is not healthy and I have to work thru all of this AND more importantly I have to help Chase work thru everything. I am so worried about him. I just pray that God will put people in his path to help him and TAKE AWAY THE ONES THAT DO NOT DESERVE TO BE THERE! We BOTH have been put thru enough to last a lifetime!
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