Another Day

Sorry- still not understanding why all this has happened and better yet how in the world could anyone do what he has done... the total betrayal to so many people and to what an extent amazes me.
I have spent YEARS feeling sorry for him, because of the picture he painted of how his life was in Warner Robins. I have spent YEARS trying to be everything I thought he wanted and needed me to be ( per what He told me and others in counseling!) I have spent years rearranging our schedule to accommodate him- giving up so much- not just putting my life on hold but Chase's also. I have spent years dreaming and planning the life he promised me and Chase. I have spent years in prayer for him- praying a hedge of protection around him and asking God to heal HIS wounded heart.
The lies that have been told that I know about (much less all the ones that have not come to light)- completely blow me away..... and the EMAILS! My gosh- how can you sit and create emails to cover up these huge lies... WHAT IN THE WORLD COULD HE HAVE BEEN
THINKING????? And that doesn't even begin to cover the issue of him holding me and loving me- then going to BE with her.....(it hurts me tremendously- but I feel for her too-- her whole marriage and that child's life is built on a LIE!!!) a HUGE effort has gone into making sure this devastating mess kept continuing. I just can't understand why ANYONE in there right mind ( and that is what is being pointed out by NUMEROUS people- someone who IS in their right mind wouldn't) would do something like this... much less to people he claims to love.

BUT- I have a choice, and I need to start living.... I have been in this skewed reality that he has created for so long that it will take awhile to start seeing the world for what it truly is.
Father, help me to see exactly what Chase said!!! That we need to look at this as a BLESSING!!! ( what an amazing child!)

I know God is reaching out all the time and has HIS arms around me AND CHASE-but I am so thankful for him sending the reassurances thru his word, spiritual programing, friends and family that LOVE CHASE AND I tremendously and tell us daily that we are better off and the daily devotionals He puts in my path! I need to cling to the fact that God's timing IS perfect- and he is sending me what I need to get THRU this storm and CLOSE this chapter of my life! It is time to chose LIFE!!!

Daily Devotional- Joyce Meyer
March 4 - Chose Life

I call heaven and earth to witness this day against you that I have set before you life and death, the blessings and the curses; therefore choose life, that you and your descendants may live. —Deuteronomy 30:19

We will never enjoy life unless we make a quality decision to do so. Satan is an expert at stealing and our joy is one of his favorite targets.
Nehemiah 8:10 tells us that the joy of the Lord is our strength.
In John 10:10 we are told that "the thief" comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but that Jesus came that we might have and enjoy life.
Satan is the thief, and one of the things he seeks to steal is our joy. If he can steal our joy from us, we will be weak; and when we are weak, the enemy takes advantage of us. Weak believers are no threat to him and his work of destruction. In order to live as God intends for us to live, the first thing we must do is truly believe that it is God's will for us to experience continual joy. Then we must decide to enter into that joy. Experiencing enjoyment in our souls is vitally important to our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health.
Proverbs 17:22 says, "A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing, but a broken spirit dries up the bones."
It is God's will for us to enjoy life! Now it is time to decide to enter into the full and abundant life that God wills for us. Joy and enjoyment are available just as misery is available. Righteousness and peace are available and so are condemnation and turmoil. There are blessings and curses available, and that is why Deuteronomy 30:19 tells us to choose life and blessings.
From the book New Day, New You: 365 Devotions for Enjoying Everyday Life by Joyce Meyer. Copyright © 2007 by Joyce Meyer. Published by FaithWords. All rights reserved.