Good Advice

Last night one of the FBC youth was pondering a big decision in her life and asked me what she should do....

OK.... first of all..... I am not the best one to be asking guidance from in the "big decision" department....OBVIOUSLY, after the revelations that have have happened in the past 2 1/2 weeks...... but anyway.....

I replied to her....

To take a deep breath, gather the info,and make the best decision she could with all the information she had. That NO decision was a wrong decision as long as she learned from her mistakes and move forward.

WOW.... that was pretty good even if I do say so myself.....
but where did THAT come from... and how come I can't take my own advice?????

And better yet... is it true.?????... right now it is hard to look at the past 8 years (or better yet the past 14 YEARS) as a "right" decision..... but I am trying so hard!!!!!!!!!!!! I do know that I did what God asked of me to do - with as much soul searching and crying out to God that I have done this past 2 1/2 weeks ( AND 8 years) I AM clear on that!!!!!!! why the rest has happened I can't get my head and heart around. And the fact that I am responsible for placing this "man" in front of my son as an example of what a husband and father should be.....( even though I was doing what I thought was best and right....) THAT IS SOMETHING I DON'T EVER KNOW IF I CAN GET PAST....but I HAVE to... I have a child...a wonderful amazing young man who deserves the BEST and it is time that I figure out what that is and how to make that happen!!!!