Ok-- home from Charleston... it was wonderful and I had an amazing time.... which is SO unusual for me.. usually I am ready to get back to my "nest" almost as soon as I get away. I love the memories... and the different scenary-- but usually after a couple of days I am wishing for the familiar. NOT THIS TIME. The closer I got to "home" the more tense and anxious I became. Not a good sign for this "homebody"-- not a good sign... BUT I AM TRYING TO LEARN FROM THESE LESSONS GOD IS GIVING ME...
so...
1) I need to face the fact that home is not my happy place right now... and work on changing that!! Because home does need to be a safe place to go to... and right now... it is NOT!
2) I need to in fact make this MY HOME... a fact that I did not even realize I had not done until all this mess!
3) I need to exercise this DEVIL from my home and reclaim what belongs to me and Chase!!!
4) I need to look at each haunting memory and place in this house and verbally and emotionally TAKE BACK that space and time and REPLACE it with a much better memory!! ( please help me with that God!!)
5) I need to acknowledge that MAYBE... JUST MAYBE this is another wonderful lesson God is granting me into the TRANSFORMATION He has promised me and is challenging me to meet head on... maybe--- it is time that I got comfortable exploring the wonderful world He has given me!
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