Thank You God

Thank you God!
Thank you God for SO MUCH!! For my friends and family who have helped me and Chase thru this fire! For our church family who are horrified beyond belief that the man they have been praying for is capable of this and continues to lift up Chase and I in prayer that is SO VERY MUCH needed! Thank you for the leading women that speak the truth in love to me and offer me guidance and wisdom that is so needed. Thank you for opening doors these past few weeks ( as everything that could go wrong has) to attorneys, mechanics, contractors and repairmen. Thank you God for in JUST the last month protecting me from what one repairman said " you are lucky your house did not burn down" and from what one mechanic said " you are lucky that you and your car did not blow up"... I am telling you IT HAS BEEN A MONTH!!! Thank you God for placing a spirit filled women that I have never met before and I probably will never see again in my life the night before my world came crashing down to give me an anointing that I KNOW is from you! Thank you God for my son, who is carrying his own burden- but is so amazing that he gives me the courage I need to keep moving forward and THRU this fire. And thank you God for leading me to authors just weeks before and implanting their blogs and books in my life for the journey that you knew would be ahead of me.


Devotional by Kerry Hasenblag:
(who is in my prayers as she goes thru the devastating lose of a child-a very different hurt than mine... but our God is the same.... and He loves us both.... and wants us to have a PEACE that is only His to give)

The fear of man brings a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD shall be safe. Proverbs 29:25
It’s 5:00 in the morning and I’ve been up since 2:30a.m. – I just can’t sleep. My mind is racing – and racing.
I decided that I needed the Word. I needed truth from God to get back to center and back to sleep for that matter. So, I came out to the living room, opened the Bible to the book of Proverbs and began reading.

And the section my eyes came to first was all about God’s perfect justice and how He sees everything and will repay blessings according to a man’s generosity and faithfulness and He will repay ruin and curses to the man who is only seeking gain and favor for himself and at the expense of others. Wow!

Why would God choose to answer the actual issues that I was wrestling with just now? I was pretty certain that I was going to receive some loving Biblical rebuke for wasting so much time thinking about frivolous and unrelated things. I was waiting for something like, “Oh foolish man why do you ponder such petty things at such a time as this…” (not a scripture by the way).
But instead God met me right where I was, and then gracious led me onward. In reading these things the Lord reminded me of two very important things.
First, that He sees and cares about all the injustices that happen. And that in His time He will repay men for all their deeds based on their true heart-motives – even when men are fooled, God is not fooled. God is far more concerned about injustice than I am, and ultimately He has it all covered.
But then after He had addressed this issues cluttering my mind, He began to address my deeper heart issue. The issue of fear! The Lord began showing me that my mind is focused on these particular hurts and pains because they are things which I believe I can avoid in the natural by trying to get into control. I so want to be safe and protected from anymore pain, I feel totally raw, and as a result my mind has been racing to figure out what I can control in my life to avoid getting hurt anymore. But the truth of the matter is that all the scheming and controlling in the world can’t protect me, or my loved ones, from future hurts or trials.

As a matter of fact, not taking my fear and human inclination to control things and situations to God will certainly end up harming me, and my loved ones. It even may keep me from being able to fully access the grace I will desperately need in the days to come. Fear and anger are certain blocks to God's grace and peace. I really need a clear path to His grace and peace just now.
I have seen this misplaced control thing happen in the lives of other hurting people in the past, and from an outsider’s perspective it was so clear to see what they were doing. But for some reason I had no idea that this was what I was beginning to do. "I can’t fix this, but I can fix that, even if its not my place or right to do, I must," is how the subconscious begins. WOW! Thank you Jesus for enlightening my own inner darkness written by fear.

Getting into control will not help my deeper pain it will just cause me more pain.

But prayer and trusting God can help my aching heart. The God who sees is also the One who is Able. So, to Him I shall now entrust the protection of my heart once again so that I may rest. Thank you Lord that you are with me always! And thank you that you do hear all my concerns and will perfect that which concerns me. I am scared and I really need you now!

Wow-- even though this was written by a stranger- from a different place of grief -her word s could be that of my own! Thank you God for showing me to this wonderful women's blog... YOU ARE A MIGHTY GOD! AND TO MAY ALL OF THIS BE TO YOUR GLORY!