Old Friends

Got in touch with an old friend that I haven't spoken to in about 14 1/2 years tonight via facebook. It was a blessing... a hard one... but a blessing. She was in England with us and we became fast friends... we had our kids 6 months apart- and then because of the way we left England I allowed that friendship to drift away. See... that brought back bad memories of the England mess... and I chose poorly- to turn aside from that and move forward. Oh- but how hind sight is 20/20- I lost my marriage and a friendship.
But thanks to facebook- we have found each other.
I actually found her a few weeks back- but couldn't come to bring her up to date.
I know that this MESS is not my fault... and I should have NO shame... but it is hard... even to just hit on the high points- to catch someone up over the past 15 years is painful. Gut-wrenchingly so!
Anyway- she is caught up! blown-away-- but caught up! It is amazing at what people will say when they know you are now longer with a person --- how much they disliked him and thought he was SO full of himself.... how often I have heard that.... WHY COULD THEY NOT TELL ME THEN..... AND MORE IMPORTANTLY WHY COULD I NOT SEE IT!!!!!!!

Anyway- it was nice to get in touch with old friends and hopefully the next visit- we can focus on her! She was always amazing! Always with the go-get-um attitude that I loved and was amazed about! She has had another child and her and her husband seem so happy! and I am happy for them.... maybe someday... God will bless me with that kind of contentment.... if it is HIS will....BUT first... I must heal.

And I think that getting in touch with lost friends is part of that. Part of my healing journey. Hopefully God will direct my steps of who I need to reconnect with. I have been blessed and have an abundance of friends... from all walks of life... young and old... that have made my life full and meaningful! Thank you God for Old Friends!!! and the new ones you have waiting in the wings!