IT IS HARD!

I know... I am too blessed to be blue--- and I really AM trying to shake it.... I really am!!!!!!!!!!!

But I am SO SICK of doing the right thing....

sorry--- just had to get that out there!

I know that God wants what is best for me and I also know that HE wants what is best for Chase!!!which is why I am on the path I am on... I KNOW all that but it is getting harder and harder to do what I know I must do!

I also know that I am on His mission field right now in the journey He has requested that I be on... it might not be in the backwoods of a foriegn country- but trust me, the forrest is full of cannibels....(ones that lock you in a prison, eat you dreams, steal your love and totally suck the life out of you!)... but I digress...

I have had a tough week- but it seems that I do this time of year... I am a 'date' person... something people who aren't have a hard time understanding. Dates when something horrific happened seem to stick firmly in my brain- and the whole month of February eight years ago really was awful! Mom got so sick and then things spirialed from there....with her and in almost every other aspect of my life. ( I know God allowed these things to happen- and they ALL had to happen to get us-Chase and I- where we are today) BUT I HAVE to let these dates go.... I HAVE to move on.....

Dear Father,

Help me replace these feelings and dates with YOUR love and knowledge that my life is FIRMLY in your hands. And HE who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it! That you wiill give me the wisdom and courage to complete the journey you have asked me to do!

Stacie