Okay- not sure where that title came from.... but maybe one day I will look back an understand. Been looking thru pics- not the wisest thing to do.... but how to you erase the bad without throwing out the good.
I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that the GOOD that was is with me today. The GOOD still lives on and is growing into a fine young Godly man. THE BLESSING (Chase) is what matters!!!
Looking at all the baby pictures and wondering what was going on even back then breaks my heart... not for the Stacie now... but for the Stacie then... and more importantly for that sweet baby boy that was thrown into this mess.
I promised myself I wouldn't ask why... almost a full year later and I KNOW there will never be an answer on this side of heaven.... but the not understanding is deep and dark.
I REFUSE to go back to that place!
MY REDEEMER LIVES... and HE knows where my steps go.
I pray that someday I can get through a day without thoughts invading...
that would be WONDERFUL...
PEACE.
But I hope also, that someday I can look at picture and remember the sweet times... without the awful distorting the memories.
Someday.....someday...
the chaff will blow away with the wind....
the dross will be burned and the GOLD will remain........
someday......
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